Decision making

I read from somewhere before that people tend to have less regrets if others decide for them. I agree, because you never have to blame yourself if the consequences of your action do not turn out the way you want them to. You don't have to blame yourself for being a total idiot for making the wrong choices. If things go haywire, it's not your fault. Instead, you probably accept it as fate. And you can blame it on fate. Or bad luck. Bad luck because you didn't make the choices. Better still, you blame it on the ones who decided for you and tada!...you hate yourself less. And the only thing you need to regret is letting that someone decide for you.

About two weeks ago, I had to register for my SPM exam which I will be taking in November. As I had mention earlier in my blog, I wanted to drop either Add Math or Chemistry. Okay, fine. To be really honest, I had been dead set on dropping Add Math since last year and was so sure that I was allowed to since the two teachers I asked said I could drop it and my parents and sisters and uncle and some of my friends even encouraged me to do so and take Literature in English instead that I didn't even bother studying for it for my finals last year and almost failed my paper. I told everyone who bothered to ask me that I was dropping it because I couldn't wait to bid my farewells to the darn-it-is-so-not-making-sense subject.

To my horror, on the day that I was supposed to officially say goodbye to Add Math, some evil teachers and my school's equally evil career counsellor told me that this subject is part of a science stream student's package and that it is compulsory for me to take it. When I heard that, I almost wanted to run to the two teachers who had been giving me false hope since last year and strangle the life out of them. No matter how I, along with Sammy and Yinhui who wanted to drop Add Math and Chemistry respectively, gave our best troubled faces, pleaded and gave all sorts of excuses, the teachers still insist that we cannot drop these subjects. Some of them said that we shouldn't give up but instead try first and see. Try first and see?!!? Wouldn't it be too late for us to say we are still lost in the world of weird-looking equations 10 days before SPM? That was the part when my mind started screaming for an American education system. Freedom to choose the subjects you fancy!

Maybe taking Add Math is not that bad lah. Especially after my school counsellor said that the standard of grading for it is embarassingly low each year. So I doubt I will fail this subject. Even if I do flunk Add Math, I won't have regrets because teachers were the ones who decided that I still take it no matter how much I despise it. So in the end, the only thing I need to regret is letting the teachers decide for me.